I am not sure about the rest of you, but I am ready for the germs of this season to be GONE. Somehow, after just finishing up with the flu about a week and a half ago, L woke up yesterday morning with another bug. Is there anything worse than a sick baby? I got the call at daycare around 10:00 that he had thrown up and needed to be picked up. Lucky for us, my MIL lives right up the street from our daycare provider and is retired so she is always more than willing to grab our little man.
I keep trying to tell myself that it is building his immunity but man is it hard, on so many levels! First there is the obvious and worst, as a mom, seeing my little guy sick rips my heart into pieces. I can’t help but it, I always end up breaking down in tears because I feel so bad. I can’t take seeing his sweet little eyes so tired and his spunk sucked out of him. I know all the mommas and daddies out there that have ever had a sick baby can relate to this. What I wouldn’t give to be able to take it away from him!
On top of that, there is the fact that sleep, for all in the family is usually diminished and interrupted. This tends to leave patience low, brains forgetful and for this mom at least, my body clumsy-er. No matter how hard I try, it is hard to be my best self when I am tired. Pair that with the fact that I am emotionally drained over having a sick baby and the combo isn’t great.
And of course there is the childcare issue. As I said, we are are lucky my husband’s mom lives in the same neighborhood as our daycare but I still always have the same internal battle: do I save my limited time off for when he really needs me, or do I stay home and snuggle him. The mom guilt on this is so strong. If I go to work I feel like I am letting him down, but if I stay home I worry that if something big ever happens I may not have the time to take. Plus I am a teacher so I feel like I am letting my students down.
For now, I’m going to pray this was a 24 hour bug and passes quickly while I drink copious amounts of coffee and take a few extra deep breaths. In the mean time, if you have any tips for keeping my sweet little guy healthy please, let me know!
Peace and Love,